Ramblings of an anxious mind!

I don’t like writing like this because it feels too honest,

but I watched a video about feeling anxious.

And it suggested being more decisive,

So, I’ve decided to be honest.

You know when a plane shakes and everyone gets nervous?

That’s me before almost any decision.

Should I watch this show?

Should I send this text?

Should I share this link?

Write this entry?

Play this song?

My friend tells me he can’t have a bad day if he watches the sunrise or sunset.

I yearn for an anchor so distinct.

Something that instantly brings me back to myself.

Everyone seems to have one, a habit or hobby, something to save them from themselves. Maybe it’s music, working out, painting or relationship

Something keeps them sane.

These are the ramblings of an anxious mind.

I urge for a day when I’m finally familiar with peace.

When it stays for more than a moment,

And my mind slips back into the slot it was meant to be in.

I call those moments synchronicity - when everything is in alignment.

The world makes sense and I know my place in it.

Everything seems brighter, my thoughts feel lighter

And I maneuver through life as fluently as everyone thinks I do.

I even understand my past, how it facilitates my path, and I smile and find it within my heart to appreciate it all.